It feels good when you go home and there's someone waiting for you. But there are times you want more than security. Being safe is boring and taking risk is fun. I sort of broke up with my boyfriend for this, to give attention to my urges, to add more color to my life and to see if there's a chance that I can be a really really bad girl. I've had these desires for to long now and I think it's time to follow them. I just hope I did the right thing here.